¡FTP RI❤︎T(s)/❤︎EUTE(s) ACAB! @4n47xt@mastodon.social
Pathologically anti-authoritarian, unqualified amateur anarchist. Nonconforming without a permit since before being unmarried and fucking with police was cool.
- stuff I like on the soundcloud's
- https://soundcloud.com/user-530632459/likes
- more stuff over there too
- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=LLbnQNpVtOkGZqn0-IdLK7kw
- and another list with all the things
- https://wp.me/p2eBlQ-xV
- ^^ will update that one monthly or so
Enjoy college while you can kids, cause yk, at some point you run outa money barely making it at a dead-end job, end up unplugging the fridge cause all it has is old yucky chemical mustard, and cops show up at the door to abduct you and take you at some medical facility for a chat, try to convince you 1 and 1 don't make two and shits, then obviously after sending you to a facility for the criminally insane, once they release you, college just doesn't feel quite the same after... so yeah, cherish
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Making good progress on #25. Is more complex than I was planning for this one, but now I have an idea of what direction to take with it.
Could be done by the end of today but I'm leaving that open.
All caught up with the regular stuff in my playlist for now. Mai's Kite Line episodes are definitely highlights I'd want to recommend here.
Some IGD, Bad News (playing right now), Anews and Final Straw in it now. Didn't listen to yesterday's Intifada yet, going to fetch it right after this.
toodles
So anyway, all that ridiculous nonsense aside (and if only it weren't true but just that, ridiculous nonsense, but alas) ... it didn't distract me from my main objective over the past couple days.
Feeling pretty good about Round Dance, the last part in this english guitar suite I was learning.
I never know how to describe these things... it's fun?
It's really, really fun to play.
Learning it was amazing fun
and now one of my fingers hurts a lot so I'm on a break :)
tooting into the void
I need to admit my culpability and move on. If the arrested me, they must've had reasons. He doesn't know what those are really, but that they had to take me in is enough to satisfy him on that front. You wouldn't want murderers to roam the streets would you?
Sure, mistakes happen, but can I prove I don't have any problems? Why does it matter he doesn't believe me or not?
My problem is that I blame everyone else for my problems!!!
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So quick recap: bridge burned.
*he
He still thinks the problem is... well, me.
Everyone has problems. But my problems he can't name them, for reasons. My problems required medical torture otherwise "murderers would be free to roam the streets"
He doesn't know my problems, alternatively, hence the gems "you're the only who knows" - "well that's just you're opinion" - "mistakes happen but in you'd have to prove to me you were innocent"
"if you want to know what you're problem was go ask the hospital, check with the police"
And he passes the blame for things that happened afterwards, after the facts he's denying me, you pass that blame to me.
Worst, in his mind, my resulting vagrancy and criminal record are justifications for the abuse and mistreatment.
In his mind, that period of time is the reason I got abducted in the first place (again, fake warrant, I was never actually charged with anything and restrained in a medical facility for several weeks).
"You had problems" ...
"Prove to me you were innocent" ...
You're only trying to help me with "problems" that aren't real.
His logic boiled down to I deserved everything that happened to me, or for good reason though he wouldn't talk about any of that.
I'm the only one who knows, he would say, but he'd refuse to believe when if I even tried to tell him. Backed into a corner he'll admit mistakes can happen, but...
But.
"Why does it matter whether I believe you or not" over and over.
Again, refusing the answers repeatedly offered to him to the point of becoming very passive aggressive.
Because when you don't...
He actually said, he told me, to show him proof of my innocence.
This will linger on for a while still. Got a call again from someone in my so called family. A person who's bridges have been burned, many times over, and they basically had nothing to say again to address the reasons why. Nothing I would expect from someone who understood our ties had been cut.
So I called the last person on that list. The one who's call I should have gotten in the first place as far as I'm concerned.
So I had to make things clear:
And now that bridge is now burned as well.
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mmm...
that first page of results is almost exclusively downloader addons, sorted by relevance
it's the first one if you look at it upside down, so that's ok I guess
haha
if it were only a few links i'd be all like "not going to log into that garbage hole just to check a couple links, screw that" ...😆
looking at really old bookmarks folders
:/
so many facebook links, too many to bother with rn... like, there's probably something in my notes somewhere as to why... resisting the urge to just wipe all of them or move them into one giant disorganized mess of a folder called just delete this junk already... cause why not?
like, when am I ever going to go through all that anyway?
guess I'll slowly edit up my listening list for the past few weeks, and fidget around with these metadata items I can add to my profile bio
no quite sure what to park there yet
/sigh
what to do, what to do...
it's so noisy around here, peeps blasting out their music out in the streets like it's Saturday afternoon or something,
I think there's a band set up in the parc blasting away with their amps too,
annoying
