I'm very very sad because i wanted to be at ESL and meet my friends. I think adrenalin of the landing and general stress and health concerns influenced my decision to turn back. It's sad because if there wasn't a stop, I'd be fine and in England right now
I feel like I've disappointed people, I've certainly disappointed myself. In hindsight I believe i made a mistake, and it's scary because at the time it so obviously didn't seem like a mistake at all. I don't know what to do with myself right now.
@NeuroWinter this is legit the most helpful thing I heard so far. Thank you