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The government is trying to kill me so please send that anti-kill energy my way fam!

paypal.me/KaiFromDaChi
cash.me/$Kaiveran

"When we hold back our feelings and ignore our pain, we are committing violence against ourselves.

The practice of nonviolence is to be here, to be present, and to recognize our own pain and despair. When anger or fear is present in us, we bring awareness to it."

#ThichNhatHanh

“But the 8-hour workday is too profitable for big business, not because of the amount of work people get done in eight hours (the average office worker gets less than three hours of actual work done in 8 hours) but because it makes for such a purchase-happy public. Keeping free time scarce means people pay a lot more for convenience, gratification, and any other relief they can buy. It keeps them watching television, and its commercials. It keeps them unambitious outside of work. We’ve been led into a culture that has been engineered to leave us tired, hungry for indulgence, willing to pay a lot for convenience and entertainment, and most importantly, vaguely dissatisfied with our lives so that we continue wanting things we don’t have. We buy so much because it always seems like something is still missing.”
— Your Lifestyle Has Already Been Designed raptitude.com/2010/07/your-lif

Vigils for Wynn Bruce.

“We will hold space for Wynn - for his sacrifice - by holding vigils all around the US and the world this Friday.”

#ClimateCrisis #Buddhism

actionnetwork.org/event_campai

Just totally fucked, it is.

Fash/GC socks (look, redundancy!) already popping up faster that I can non-suspendedly mass-block them, and I *know* that problem's only gonna get worse with a faux-libertarian scumbag at the helm.

What I'm really worried about is all the normies who won't know better, who are gonna get boiled like a frog in slowly heating fascis,. It sucks that this is coming just when it seems I've truly learned how to speak plainly and conduct struggle.

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I'm not totally shifting to Masto but recovering my accounts and biding my time.

I'm sure I'll fall victim to the Musk City Hate Crew what with the frequency of my mouthing off these days. But I'll keep fighting until my account disappears for good.

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mh (--), suicidal thoughts 

I slowly built up a rapport with this person and let her chip away at my armor for literal YEARS. She was on my gender journey and political awakening right along side me. She was one of only a couple of people in the world I could trust. And now she's gone.

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mh (--), suicidal thoughts 

can y'all tell i've lost access to a therapist that I really really trusted and that I'm making the prospect of never seeing her again another one of my failures

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mh (--), suicidal thoughts 

lol, i'm trying to make this about the system, but the truth is I could have gotten myself in a better place countless times and just straight-up failed everytime.

even people I call friends or lovers, the only things of value I have, I can never keep up on them. maybe I don't really love anyone and am just stringing them along for my own benefit. maybe it's all fake and I'm just terrible. maybe the pain would eventually give way to them realizing the truth.

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mh (--), suicidal thoughts 

sustain myself by UNapproved means? get caught and it's even worse. as a felon I'm part of a permanent underclass. The 0.1% chance I have of getting ahead becomes 0.0%. That is, if I don't get outright killed by organized crime and/or fellow prisoners anyway just for being queer.

what I do know is I can't do what this system wants me to do – slave away poor, tired, unwell, and repressed forever. so what the fuck do I do?

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mh (--), suicidal thoughts 

sometimes I feel like suicide is the only way i'll ever die with dignity.

take the "approved" ways of getting ahead? I'm not an upper-class PACH-man, so I'll stagnate forever with qualifications I can't use, low wage jobs, sky-high rent, and eventually a machine will replace me.

I'll just say this: nonbinary folks are not your thought experiment.

Hi yes, we exist, we're right here. If you're not nonbinary we don't need you ruminating on how our identities could possibly work and implying that they don't.

I don't give a fuck if you can't understand things about how our nonbinary genders or lack thereof work, keep it to yourself

violence/murder/bigotry mentions 

So this is why I have vanishing tolerance for anyone who parrots "idpol distraction!" talking points, or papers over state-sanctioned bigotries within ostensibly "leftist" regimes as some trivial aberration.

Trust me, I would LOVE not to worry about food, shelter, or healthcare. But if self-determination/actualization is denied to ANYONE within any "socialist" order, it has planted the seeds of its own destruction.

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The state would find a way to deny them full citizenship/personhood with the QUICKNESS. And where state oppression is found wanting, the people will gladly step in.

Then after that might come the trans people, or Muslims. Casual general bigotry is always fertile ground for the -truly- dedicated reactionaries against us. It gives them the weapons they need to corrupt and slowly destroy it from the inside out. It would all fall apart.

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I don't think this can be denied anymore; we've all seen how people will simply ignore anything that challenges their bigoted views. Like the Matrix, these people are so dependent on the system that they'll fight to preserve it.

Imagine that Europe becomes the ESSR overnight. Do you really think they'd give up their incredible hate for Travelling Peoples? When camp arsons, stolen children, and even lynchings persist? Get fucking real.

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It seems like all we gotta do is get labeled "agents of capitalist/imperialist decadence" by a big enough leader, and boom, there goes our rights. There goes "socialism" for us.

And therein lies the rub: if kyriarchal views are an essential pillar of capitalism, then it stands to reason that attempting to establish socialism without cultural deprogramming is unsustainable; we simply leave too many avenues for our hard-won freedom to be destroyed.

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Even if you accept countries' claims to be socialist/communist at face value, all you have to do is look at the post-Lenin USSR (historically) or China (now) to prove my point; both of these countries have a consist record of pervasive anti-queerness (with China also being violently colonialist as well.)

Shit, even Cuba, perhaps the least controversial country still in the Red Club, has only recently warmed up to idea that people like me deserve rights.

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