Dysphoria, cis bullshit 

Sorry I use this place mostly to vent btw, you’re real sweet for putting up with it. Hope ur well <3

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Dysphoria, cis bullshit 

I should probably just say “I’m not cool with that” but if there is a follow-up “why?” I’ll probably just start crying and I dunno if I’d ever stop. It should just be obvious that you don’t joke about this shit.

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Dysphoria, cis bullshit 

Last time this happened was literally a joke that I could’t have kids as though I never wanted them or something?! Hi yes I didn’t make this big alterations just to get out of having kids????? There is pretty much nothing I ever wanted more than to be a mother but that is too fucking PREPOSTEROUS for even the most compassionate cis mind to consider I guess

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Dysphoria, cis bullshit 

Got a stomach ache today and a family member (who is otherwise really supportive) made a joke “is it your period? :p” and like, first of all, yeah actually I am fucking hormonal rn, that’s probably part of it. Fucking imagine that. Also, this isn’t the first time that my current reproductive situation has been a joke among family members and I’m sick of it. What about me makes it seem that I appreciate these “jokes”?

right after i joined mastodon i saw a post (idr who it was from) that said smthn like "it's really painful how things like art and dancing are considered something you have to be good at instead of things that all humans do, as naturally as eating or breathing" and i think about that all the time. the things that we naturally do have been commodified and portrayed as somethint to struggle for, as things that only The Best are allowed to do. when without that pressure, we would all just do them??

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birdsite screenshot / legal stuff / dice 

Seriously tho who likes a comment that maybe you're litigious unless like, you really are and it's a warning?

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birdsite screenshot / legal stuff / dice 

They are watching! I think I made the right call lol.

Anyway hey what's up you're cute, but in a smart way like you've got a really cute soul.

I mean you're cute in the usual way too.

But your soul is ADORABLE. Look after that OK <3

"Illium" was another name for the city of Troy

"-ad" is a suffix that can be used to mean "the story of"

Therefore "The Illiad" is properly translated as; drumroll please...

Troy Story

My dice app is 1 month old so: Steam key giveaway 

L5?X6-JBW8Z-4MI3G
XW5PN-RL34?-HK284
QPBKB-90?D4-6TDKJ
MLQBZ-VJQDR-HVIG?

?s in order = "BDAY"

have fun rolling :)

bad mental health day venting 

"Haha Sophie, you fool! Don't you realise that the best you can hope for in life is some half-way decent pizza is itself a constant reminder of the suffering I have cursed you with!"

I AM GOING TO MAKE IT A LARGE PIZZA WITH A STUFFED CRUST AND I'M GOING TO EAT IT UNTIL I VOMIT. ENJOY GETTING ZERO SATISFACTION FROM MY SUFFERING ONCE I AM THE SOLE CAUSE OF IT YOU COSMIC FUCKFACE

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bad mental health day venting 

To whichever cosmic being delights in spoiling my every attempt at a moment's pleasure:

You know what? Fine. Fuck it. I'm done trying to plan ahead or be sensible. I'm ordering a fucking pizza and I ~know~ you're gonna try and make it shitty and badly cooked and have it give me food poisoning or whatever but I'm past giving a fuck. You want the job of keeping me miserable? well I hope you don't want any time off because I AM HAVING ICE CREAM AFTER. AND CHOCOLATE.

tfw you trigger an unhelpful error message that you don't remember programming

figured the best way to draft the story for my RPG would be right in pico-8 so I can see just how it will read

also, writing is fun? writing is fun everyone. let's quit videogames and do writing.

Dream / dysphoria 

Had one of those dreams where it is really awful to wake up and realise it isn't true. An added dose of morning dysphoria too, and it's basically like waking from a body-horror nightmare in reverse :/

Netflix: "New stranger things!"
Me: "OK cool I'll check that out when I have time"

Netflix: "New Tales of Arcadia!"
Me: "STOP EVERYTHING. HOLD THE PHONE. ALL OTHER ACTIVITIES ARE CANCELLED. WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY ARCADIA CHILDREN."

Social justice gender gamedev Stuff 

I guess maybe that's my response? I just explain some awkward gender stuff and say "How can I help?"

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Social justice gender gamedev Stuff 

And then there are my own personal things that complicate stuff like "Hi, I'm actually non-binary and yeah I do lean more towards demi-woman and have experience presenting as a woman in gamedev but I'm not sure if you are actually interested in my contributions or if you even know what any of that even means."

It's so exhausting sometimes just to get to a point where I know how I could help or even just say "what do you want from me?"

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