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I am not accustomed to allowing myself to be vulnerable. The few times I have done this in my adult life have all turned out badly.

There is an investment that is so much more intense going into this action than I can describe with words. I just hope it pans out.

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Dogs play the game where you don't let the balloon touch the ground. On a beach. I watched at least a dozen loops already and I'm not even close to done

Furries, what’s most cringy to you in your daily fandom experience?

Why can’t the Mastodon macOS client “MAST” upload images? Lol Like, there’s a setting for uploading videos as GIFs, but there’s no tool or option to upload a video in the new toot window. And there’s absolutely no tool or option for still images. What the fuck?

Loneliness, depression, self-loathing… 

I know my ADHD and PTSD, my lack of emotional response to things sometimes gets in the way and makes it hard for people to connect with me, but… what can I do? What can I do? And why is the burden always all on me? I just want a friend. I want companionship. I want someone to care about me. Just once. I’m so alone.

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Loneliness, depression, self-loathing… 

There’s no one explanation to address every person. Certainly nothing that makes sense, not unless there was a concerted effort on my ex’s part to turn everyone against me—which I don’t believe. So I’m left with the only believable solution being that the problem is me. That I’m just not a likeable, loveable person. I try my best to be good & kind, generous & friendly. Perhaps I just don’t go far enough? Perhaps I am not good enough? Perhaps I am not enough?

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Loneliness, depression, self-loathing… 

There’s not a lot I can do about it, but the facts are the facts. I have no friends anymore. They all left me when my ex broke up with me three years ago. They chose him over me. They didn’t have to, there was no choice put before them. But choose they did. And today I’m alone. I have no one. It’s frustrating and infuriating. I thought that I had finally found a family, but I suppose I am destined to be solitary until I die. What did I do?

when a dog barks, you tend to

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The number of people I’ve watched read this sign (and it’s many counterparts) this morning and then move on, sans mask, is frustrating.

Ultimately, there’s no solution for now. Only discomfort… only dreams.

Thanks for coming to my TED Talk.

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And to be perfectly, 100% honest with you, this is a stigmatized topic at its very core outside the and communities, that will get you labeled as a crazy person—which, again, is not a helpful term! This is something that in 10 years I have *never* mentioned, not even once, to my therapist. I’ve told her about , but never about or in any sense. I’m, frankly, afraid to. But should I be?

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Tuth be told, I have absolutely no idea how to respond to any of these questions. I simply have dreams and hopes that far-flung science fiction ideas like those we see in or some day—hopefully within my natural lifetime—become reality so that I can live at least SOME of my life in a more comfortable condition.

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is particularly concerned with the , but for the purposes of this thread, I want to stick to the and . Brains are just WEIRD. So how does one get wired such that it wants to be, feels that it is, “NEEDS” to be in the body of a different species to that which it currently finds itself? What are the conditions that lead to such an experience? And what possible remedies are available to resolve such conditions, if any?

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Now, a lot of and advocates will tell you that is a common and unifying disorder among their ranks. But what IS it? Well, it’s exactly what it says. A “state of general unease or dissatisfaction with life” as one’s present species. It’s being uncomfortable in your very skin, no matter the situation or context. All. The. Time. Because something’s just… not right.

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So… let’s talk about species and body ! I know that it sounds, on its face, like a ridiculous complaint from a privileged perspective, but it’s a very real thing that haunts me on the daily. Maybe I’m crazy? Who knows, but that’s a term that society has thrown at people who it doesn’t understand and doesn’t want to deal with for centuries. It’s not just, nor helpful.

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