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i never even called it trauma until recently cuz it was like , it seems so insignificant to me, theres no one big event i can pinpoint just so many little things for years and years. idk now , it seems like the appropriate word for it now. like... why else would i be so fucked up had to be cuz of something right

it feels like that period of my life never even happened... i took no photos went to no events or contributed to anything at school. i never went out with my "friends" its all just a blank period.

but it feels so weird cuz its like... all the pain and tr*uma from those times its like... theres no real proof it existed other than how its affected me now

i was laughing about all my weird posts as a kid and how nerdy and awkward i was but now i jst feel bad. I was just a terribly lonely kid with no real friends. I never left the house and stayed at home on the computer all day

wow im back here no one is on here but time to be sad

i really just gotta get outta peoples business

im feeling SO shitty about my art and jst shitty in general i cant draw at all lately ?!??!

i have to listen to ed sheeran so fucking much at work cuz the radio station we always get stuck on is flaming hot piss and im so over him n the fact hes having more s*x than me despite looking like a goblin -__-

but i will say my friend said they only used game grumps to be funded and for like , publicity i suppose and like USE KICKSTARTER was it rlly worth like , all this bad press and attention frm homophobic straights playing the game and like workin with racists like. idc if there gay they made a conscience decision to work with gg despite the reputation and i wont feel bad there getting shit for this decision

im so tired of ddads discourse n dont wanna keep it going anymore im jst over it !!! leave me alone !!

honestly i have been like saying frm day 1 this game was gonna be trash like , sorry! im not gonna laugh in anyones face for buying it but like , it was made my game grumps like , cmon. i feel ppl should have worked it out or waited for reviews before going ahead and immediantly buying it. idk what to say anymore u kinda asked to be let down tbh

one of the dad in that hell game is a serial killer in a mad end , wow LMFAO

feelings so [redacted] lately when will [redacted] [redacted] me ?

and yes im still seeing shit on my tl leave me alone!!!! idk care abt ur dads voiced and written by racist homophobic straights

this bg is SO lazily done by , feelin bad for ppl who bought this with Money https://mastodon.social/media/mKvcD2_XEO7gsZksm-U

honestly id do anything for a better chin i hate mine so much !!!! its such a weird thing to fixate on but its my Ugliest feature

ive decided not to be such a bitter single but if i had a hot gf id be less bitter abt where i lived if it kinda sucked. but also if the food + shops there all suck and its all expensive hipster shit everywhere not even a hot gf can make me wanna move there

its like 2 yrs away but im so :/ abt moving to [redacted] its so far and ive lived here my whole life but its too expensive to buy housing here where will i go :( ,

i mean u could argue since in college u usually dont go full time n u work outside of class to make up for that but like , i suck ass at working frm home + god on that tangent i used to have like 2 1/2 hours between classes of nothing to do it was literal hell, some ppl would like go home n come back but i was too far

work is tiresome but it feels really good to go home and its like ? over? unlike w/ school you worrying and stressing about all the assignments u gotta do

should use this for more than jst stuff i dont wanna share overtly publicly b4 this comes my shittalk blog