julia chickens @bep@mastodon.social

darth wiseau

im gay by the way

thinking lots about golden bough and scapegoating and ocular imagery and what it all means. eyes perceive sunlight. before fire, there was the sun. dont look directly into the sun, or youll burn your eyeballs lol

happy honda days

i feel like im interfacing with forces which are very old and powerful. i wonder if they dont have a plan for me as well, or if theyre greater than me

i feel like im a time bomb ready to explode. i feel... not terrible, but like a maelstrom of energy is loose inside me

i feel intense like all my emotions are forming a huge cocktail and nuking my brain

nothing is more jarring than reaching the event horizon in a spyro game where the water tapers off into the sky and looks like 3d art from the 80s. it makes something that formerly seemed kind of real feel like a paper lantern or diorama on a bookshelf

dont know how to feel about bitsy games. its nice that tools are easier for people to access, but it really makes game design feel more reductive and interchangeable than ever

soft rhythms

street rat

there is a place in our psychology for both angels and demons. it is in their balance and flexibility that the human organism becomes whole

it is admittedly hard to live well if you arent a person of means. i believe that in this late epoch, its more a matter of the powerful ceding their power than the weak bootstrapping themselves. but in times of fear or doubt, it would be good if people who suffer had something to fall back on, ideologically. maybe the bible already is that book, though

i dont mean to suggest ill be changing the course of history with my writing. i just think it would be cool to write about "how to live." thats the root of my philosophy, finding a way to live well

i had a very impactful and meaningful dream after weeks of studying and writing about philosophy. it symbolized what i believe will soon be a major breakthrough in my theories. it took the form of the ten commandments, but it was in a book i had written. maybe ill be able to make a difference, after all

someday ill get that magic wand

there is a time in everyones life when they feel theyre in the palace dungeon

"palace dungeon" is quickly transforming from a pet project to a potent spiritual metaphor for my transformation as a creator