c.d.m. rørmose @body@mastodon.social

When you're done hibernating... that's byebernating

Sometimes when I'm anxious I end up automatically saying words without thinking about them. Just now I said "Pickle my tickle Tayne-pain and eat my peat" and I instantly had this sense of deep dread about what the hell my subconscious is even doing

The neighbors have a dog whose barking sounds like a man saying "woof"

Propagating "otherkin are insane" rhetoric as a normative given, to show how respectable and normal my queerness is by comparison

I love to burn the hopes of other types of weird people for fuel

Surely this will never backfire at all

Not even when bodmod possibilities open up a bit more, thereby implicitly validating otherkin materially

Nope

Why aren't phoenixes called flamingos

If your bodmod-heavy scifi setting doesn't have a shitton of queer furries then it isn't realistic. Unless it's depicting a world with explicitly neoreactionary politics of course.

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Oh... this means most scifi settings unthinkingly depict worlds with implicitly reactionary culture, don't they? Which would explain why so many neoreactionaries see themselves as representing the True Future of Humanity...

Full disclosure: I always have had a lot of otherkin-like feelings; but their immediate effect is to lead me to be debilitatingly jealous of modes of existence that are impossible (or that only occur in resimulation-space, an idea which leads to its own problems); so I have generally always just shut down that part of myself.

Lukewarm take: Everyone who's angry about dinosaurs being feathered should just go ahead and make a bald dinosaur fursona already

Pretty sure the only thing that alleviates my gnawing sensation of idiocy, anymore, is the act of just continually taking time out of my life to read books (and the books that I can stand aren't even useful ones)

Just remembered that I had an incredibly weird breakthrough philosophy thought when I was going to sleep yesterday, but I've forgotten the contents of the thought completely, and now I'm agonizing

Rice of roni............

Really feel like my subconscious fundamentally doesn't understand any period of time shorter than a week ☢️

If someone who is on the US Army or State Dept payroll, or in a situation where they were formerly a member of the armed forces and might secretly still be on an espionage org's payroll, starts calling themself a socialist... your default posture should be suspicion and critical inquiry. This is anti-sabotage 101.

Augh... love to be awakened by an incredibly severe hailstorm that requires me to manage a leaky roof

Falling of sleep........

If you sample-slice a Romantic-era piano piece, that's called Frederic Chopinscrew

I actually fucken memorized the entirety of the poem from "Zookeeper" by Seeming... how did I even do this

Alright. I think I'm now emerging from my months-long worst depression slump of all time. It seems to have actually just been caused by thinking that I'd never be able to transition; but now I probably will be able to transition. And that has fixed my mood.

So... Now that I am mentally in a place where I am able to work again... I will do several test/debug marathons on Tine, then split my time between sorting out the beta-prototypes and writing music