Cassi the Fiery @cassi@mastodon.social

it'd not that I can't sleep, I'm just too busy vibing (with what, who knows)

anyway on a better note it seems like all 9 of my interviewees will hopefully be accepted :>

one of those days where the constant restlessness is a bit worse. I used to call it stagnation... if I stayed still too long - geographically, mentally, career-wise, etc - I would feel this incrementally increasing desperation. I don't know if this is the 'chronic emptiness' of bpd or if it's just a common human experience. it's shitty because it sounds like I'm taking things like loved ones for granted but I'm not... it's a confusing longing for something I can't put my finger on

world's too sharp again.

almost worked for these folks, totally get mercenary vibes 😆

omg this former special forces combat medic is talking about his pokemon card collection 5 CUTE 3 ME

IT BEGINNNSSSS

my bbys are gonna do great

interviewing applicants to my old professional program and it's like wow, these are the type of folks applying these days? how did I get in?!

update: they in fact did not give a fuck either

I start in two weeks lmao

seen in patient note:

Assessment: lymphocyte doubling time is infinity

in better news, applications for the emergency psych and the respite house both got forwarded to their departments so

got an offer letter to work as a federal contractor... $185/hour (!!) but I'll miss out on it because of monitoring board. sigh.

holy shit thank you insurance

interview next week for disease intervention position. probably gonna just keep my lip jewelry in because it's the end of the world and it's hard to give a fuck

federal contractor employer: we sent you a welcome letter. do it. do it now. we need it. you start next week. bAcKGrOUnd CHeCK

looking at kite catalogs that I remember from being a tiny thing and nostalgiaiiaiaiaiaia

also pending: a million epidemiology jobs, three working with houseless populations jobs, two scientist jobs, one oncology advisor job

maybe interview with per diem OR-only position, no clinic, no rounding. whaaat

optometrist: now face the retina scanner
me: ok *hovers face near it uncertainly*
optometrist *firmly grips the back of my head and pushes my face into the face rest*
me: uhhhh
optometrist: *continues to assertively tilt my head back and forth*
me: 😳😏