AN USER: I'm trying to install this desktop app but I can't figure out which package is the right one for my mac?
AN DEVELOPERER (wise): ugh, just use these four package managers to install the runtimes for seven programming environments you don't use so you can build it from source, obviously? wtf is wrong with you
welcome to goulag / internet censorship / russia
It's a black day for #russian internets: a bill draft was proposed by Russian government that bans usage of #VPN, #Tor, and other anonymizers. This happened only 10 days after a Tor exit node administrator #DmitryBogatov was arrested. Being anonymous is now a crime in Russia... #freeBogatov https://rublacklist.net/27859/
1st brain: writing a song in C major or A minor
2nd brain: composing in modal or serialist/tone-row forms
3rd brain: atonal generative computer music code-golfing
4th brain: building dozens of theremin-playing garden gnomes which themselves are theremins, and precisely positioning them in intricate fractal pentagrams to produce polyphonic threnodic whirls
[Deep Breath] Fuckit.
"I Don't Understand You." An honest ramble about feedback, or lack thereof, and my brain.
This is both remarkable and sad. A scheduled suicide blog post: https://willopines.wordpress.com/2017/04/19/punched-out/
I get his reasons. It's tiring to be an obligate social creature when you're not good at being social.
But if you go down that mental road, consider that the opinion of "the masses" will always be irrelevant and usually somewhat dumb. It's okay to be bad at social interactions, too.
It's not that "nobody cares", it's that it's irrelevant if anybody cares as long as you do.
The #fediverse is a really interesting little self-selected population.
Has anyone done the anthropology that this so clearly invites?
I'm not at all comfortable being even tangentially associated with a "community" where having even the nuance of a contrary viewpoint marks one as a "tool of the ___", where the blank stands in for whatever ideological shibboleth is the Most Important Thing to a bloc of people in a circle of very tightly pulled wagons.
And I have to say that none of it motivates me to untangle the bullshit just to validate my own view. I'm far more inclined to shut up and walk away.
I have increasingly bad and constant tinnitus, which I understand to be a result of the degradation of my cochlear nerves.
I'm also beginning to smell incense nearly all the time, and I wonder if there's an olfactory equivalent of tinnitus, in which phantom smells persist as those sensory nerves fail.
In any case, while the tinnitus is slowly driving me crazy, I actually kind of like the hallucinations of fragrance.
In college I learned what Aspergers was. I nodded thoughtfully, and then carefully studied the Wikipedia page and several other informative website. Good news! I wasn't Asperger's, according to the definitions I found.
I often wonder if it's more of a fluid spectrum and Aspergers is simply a medicalization of a normative human variation. It seems to have a strong difference from some of the poor souls who I've seen that are called autistic.
the best way to celebrate easter is to resurrect something. an old project. your interest in a topic. your passion. a dead relative
I've spent decades on the net arguing, fisking, flaming, lecturing, flouncing... basically emitting every variant of shitty and self-defeating behavior.
I now find that birdsite's culture and format lend themselves to a kind of snipey back-and-forth that reiterates and reinforces some of the worst of those tendencies, and find myself biting my virtual tongue more often than not, to avoid the trap.
In response, I've taken to simply and quietly unfollowing when rank bullshit scrolls by.
Now also @datawench