The Napelectic @dualhammers@mastodon.social

I wonder what would happen if I just switched over to here instead of Twitter for my feelings posts

#Autofanta Age of Napoleon ep: 3
https://mastodon.social/media/jAukkT5K_dB-Z7RNUWw

Is there a good mastodon app yet?

@rich_lem welcome to the outer reaches

Hi I am back. I just sort of gave up on a dream slash decade long promise to my dead parents.

How are you?

I feel ugly today. People I know were drooling over Justin Trudeau and I don't know it just triggered my anger from years of fatphobia. I'm ugly and some people can look past that and no amount of pretending can change the fact that I got dealt a shitty hand and I'll always be ugly

I'm feeling pretty hopeless today. I ate too much to try and feel better after work. I always eat too much. I'm disgusting and I probably will be dead soon from my perverse gluttony

Body positivity is like love; literally pointless without action. if you're only Fawning over "exceptional" bodies in a traditional view of attraction you're doing nothing but furthering the thing you claim to stand against

The movers are showing up today to take my wife's stuff away. I'm sad.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=I6RnlngUZJY

I'm apparently good at sex??? Also I had a lot today???

The masons of memory found themselves building more and more elaborate castles for those who refuse to let go of the old bones

I went to my first kink munch last night... And felt super affirmed and welcomed! What a wonderfully affectionate community

bloodborne at midnight with the lots of to face my fear of isolation?? okay!

Hi I also got a job today. It's at the Starbucks. They are willing to pay me slightly more than my total monthly expenses to sling coffee

‪All my life I've struggled to accept the basic tenets of belief about the world, probably, in part, because of how they were first taught to me. "Because I said so" is bullshit. Always. ‬

"It feels true" is a good starting point but probably not enough to justify forcing others to live like you do

I miss her. She says she'll never speak to me again. I don't have a reason to get up anymore. If I wouldn't get evicted i probably wouldn't

Happy Valentine's day ya cuties.

I have crushes on all of you

This means I may never amount to anything. I don't care. No accolades will heal the scars caused by constant burnout.

It won't make up for the hurt I've caused others in my fear and hate.

It won't bring my wife back.

Nothing will. Only living as I ought to have all along will stop the hurt

I have never accepted the pace at which my body wants to move. I've always been trying - often forced to - keep up with the peace other people set.

It has never made me feel good about myself or my life. I've always felt bound.

Not anymore. I'll go at my own pace. Maybe my parents will be right and it'll lead to me being homeless but I don't care. I will live at my body's speed.

Dualhammers#3933

Days like today my painful past feels like a wound: one that has needed treatment for decades that no one can help me with.

Imagine having a broken bone and everyone expecting you to just get on with it. That's how my mental health feels often