Mental health stuff, therapy, work etc.
Sooo... I probably learnt more about myself during the last 2-3 weeks through a few hours of Youtube, half a dozen medical papers and my unwanted constantly ongoing automatic reflections then through the last X months of therapy. I'm aware by now what I'm more or less abusing my therapy for - and it's a function I really needed, that aside I feel certain by now that it's the wrong therapist & type of therapy to be really helpful I don't blame her for that, the approaches she tried simply don't work because I function differently and basically my subconsciousness goes into defense and I automatically refuse to respond in a way that's actually helpful for a Freudian to work with. I guess the next round of mental gut punches will follow, when the textbook on my diagnosis arrives, but I'm fairly confident, that I can work something out for myself, that'll work... also I deeply understood why I failed in my last job and left - which is essentially the same(although for different reasons) why I left the job before. It is kind of a miracle that I have not yet killed my relationship for the same deeper reasons and I'm kinda grateful for that, as far as I'm able to feel this.
Idk if this sounds pretentious but it looks a lot like I have to define the game when it comes to work or I will at some point repeat what happened... So I guess now is the point to do something very different then I would normally do & I'm fully aware now why this is a good thing for me. Let's go team /me and work it out...
May sound weird but I have not experienced a deep positive emotional insight in a long time and esp. not one I can actually work with instead of just acknowledging.
My wife got her first bit of hate mail today, i've never been so proud!
Making old racists angry, so they need to run to a photocopier and make some pamphlet of right-wing lunacy is pretty cool. All of that hate for the massive crime of standing in the German elections concerned about the climate, and saying no to racism.
Make Nazis' Lose Again!
if she does the 100m stoned, they should give her two gold medals
GSoC update from Audacity: the source separation effect is basicaly working, so you can take a mix of voices/instruments and separate it into per-voice tracks
i had no idea how much i feared breaking my arm until i just watched a guitarist youtuber i've watched for while come on with a broken arm explaining how he won't be playing guitar for a while. He said that pain was worse than the break, as a human that's hard to comprehend as a guitarist........NNNNOOOOOOOOOO
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found the entire concert, officially recorded. 🙏
i hope there is a recording of this off the PA....
Chris Stapleton tribute to Prince by singing LIVE "Nothing Compares to You"
Hair stood up on this one. HAD no idea who Chris Stapleton but i've heard this covered a few time. What a voice he's got though. WOW
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it's been coming for years and years, was an amazing place when i started but fooking hell it's full of twats who just need to be important because they're missing something in their life. Of course every individual is an exception to the rule.
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