iris @ibull@mastodon.social

i hope my friends conducting research on trans- communities online make room in their footnotes and/or methodologies to talk about how fucking exhausting it is to conduct literature reviews that misgender and engage in TERF-y discursive practices. ffs.

i feel like i fell off here when the workshop planning picked up in intensity. since its conclusion, i've been thinking about this space more and more often, and about my writing praxis more generally. writing and planning are the same kind of emotional labor for me. playing overwatch does not feel like emotional labor, or at least like the same kind of labor, which is why i think that has been my 'not work' activity for the last year.

things that have changed since last sharing on mastodon: playing overwatch in an esports context. realizing my quals consists of a 100 source annotated bib instead of a 4-day written exam. new roommate from france reminding me what it's like to live with openly friendly people again. co-produced a sts-themed graduate student workshop that was amazing and totally draining. i've given up regularly stocking alcohol for whenever-i-need-them deep-tissue massages.

sharing this Very Good article on 'becoming-academic' and 'becoming-collective'. academia.edu has problems, but their work here should not be limited by the paywalls that police the dissemination of their efforts https://www.academia.edu/33610534/Gender_and_Education_Becoming-academic_in_the_neoliberal_academy_A_collective_biography

today's witchcraft to help me through the process of defining my dissertation: decide there is a future in which I conduct an international ethnography and study the technocultural practices that characterize people who make gelato. ah yes, to take a small step in preparing for that journey I should inquiry locally about interning with software developers who produce applications for surveilling and shaping urban life. duh. 😂

building my first pc this week. been agonizing over parts and saving money for 6 months. should have everything by friday.

so thankful i was able to pick up an extra teaching gig this summer in order to afford it all. this would have been an impossibility without first finding the generous friends and colleagues i have in the school of informatics and computing.

it is late.
i have stopped binge-watching naruto for the time being as my partner has passed out. and i'm thinking about the pleasure of this listlessness that i derive from being home on the weekends, doing nothing of value to anyone but me. i almost wish i could sleep, but the stillness at present is somehow more enjoyable and less chaotic than dreaming.

Logging on today to boost #fembot new publication of the Ada Journal—I thought some on here might be interested in J. Reagle's article "Naive Meritocracy and the Meanings of Myth" http://adanewmedia.org/2017/05/issue11-reagle/

I wonder if account in/activity is measured by toots or logins?

after 3 weeks of the keifer experiment, my gut feels better but cystic acne has returned with brutal force. *heavy sigh*

done grading. writing seminar papers. taking notes rn on McKittrick's Demonic Grounds.
https://mastodon.social/media/c8oaqXiG06JhevRMh_M

personal list of today's good things:
up early
banana bread & eggs for breakfast
beautiful day for biking to work
thanked by several students after they finished final exams
first seminar of the day was basically a lunch (sushi for me!) where we shared heartfelt take-aways from the class
class let out early
faculty member excitedly agrees to be on my committee
second seminar is canceled
stop at bike shop, upgrade lights (20 lumens!)
groceries!
clean air filter!
good veggies + bacon for dinner!