It’s not April 1, but I knew it then. I wanted to tell you all, because I mean wouldn’t it be a fantastically bittersweet cruel joke, that turned out to not be a joke?

At the same time I felt it was too mean, since then I’ve been sitting here eager, happy, and excited to tell all of you that I am back.

And hopefully back to stay.

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I have a feeling there’s going to be a lot of questions. Some of you wont even know what I’m back from/for?

I’m back as Project Manager for .

I’m back from being sick, too sick to function. I ended up getting a month and a half of sick-leave, but it took me a while to actually get there. And that, together with some other stuff, has brought me back, on top of the world (that's how I feel)

I figured the question a while back may have revealed it to you. Some seemed to have maybe caught on. Some (very few) seemed to have thought that was me saying I was now the Project Manager. But today I can say it. It may be weird to attach so much feelings of pride to those two words? Project Manager.

And yes, you are probably right, but I loved my time with you all, even when it was tough, I hated that I had to leave because of my mental health, and I thought that I was never going to be able to come back, but I am here now, today, I’m back. For you.

To allow for some transparency, me and Gargron reached an agreement that we’re testing out for this first month. Basically I won’t be working hours, we have agreed to a monthly pay.

This is so I can focus on giving you all and the project the best care possible, without worrying about if I can properly track the minutes I work. I want to be there for you all when I am around. Not shut myself down and say “No sorry not working now, ttyl”. It does not foster a very good relationship.

In regards to this I will also be making myself an alt account for more of my private stuff. But also, just a place I can hang and chill when I’m not necessarily working. I will without hesitation block anyone who brings up work with me to that account.

So, if you want to talk about mastodon the project, you find me right here on @maloki as usual.

But if you want my private side, i'm over on 🕵️‍♀️ this one wont be open for everyone but posts probably mostly public.

I want to extend an enormous thank you, to all of you. When I stepped away, you were all so supportive of me, and appreciated what I did or had done for the project.

It was a difficult decision to make, but I made it so I could regain strength, and come back if fate allowed it. If you had asked me a month ago, I wouldn’t have been able to tell you that I was coming back, I didn’t know I could, I didn’t even think I could go back to university.

I also want to take this moment to recognize that some of you do not like me, but I am willing to put the past in the past and move on, if you are willing to as well.

As an act of good faith, I have unblocked and unmuted everyone who had ended up there for a reason or another, as I’m moving my personal time to another account.

I will however be setting my foot down on moot discussions, and maybe not entertain every idea. It’s about boundaries, and respecting each others time.

If anyone has anything they’d like to sort out with me, I’m open to have a chat. We (both me and Eugen) are also reachable via an email now,

With that in mind, I will be continuing the work on making the scope and the mission for Mastodon clear. This will help both you and us to delineate what is feasible for Mastodon to do, and what another project is better suited to pick up.

Last time around I couldn’t deal with DMs due to lack of spoons, that is not an issue now, so my DMs are open, but always remember, for more efficiency it is in 9 of 10 times better to write me a public/unlisted message, especially when you have questions, so I can boost the questions I can’t answer at the moment.

It’s what I’ve been doing lately anyways, always just boosting when I can’t answer. There’s a chance that someone else can. Remember that you can use and

There’s been some fantastic work by others, and I see you all. And boost a lot of your good shit.

We’re all building this together, by our presence, by our code, by our outreach, by our care for each other.

I think this mostly covers it.

Hi, herd, I’m back!

💞 :janiawoo:

Ps, did I ever tell you that I am :batman: ?

(Totally seamless, no one will notice! )

Fixed \o/

I deleted the two that weren't attached. It's all fine.

Anyways, thank you for the warm welcome back, I gotta go have some dinner, then hand over the computer to @Loa so he can stream :)

@maloki Woo, glad you're on top of it again! And welcome back as PM :)

@maloki Welcome back!!! Please don't push yourself, your wellbeing comes first :3

@maloki Do you know I'm Superman ! And I'm back so watch out all you braggers !

@maloki - a feature I would love to see is in addition to Mute, I would really like to be able to limit my timeline to the first five posts in a day from someone then no more - some people are really active which is great, but I like to see a bit more variety in my timeline and if I follow too many prolific posters/boosters I start missing things.

@SirWilliam I think this is what lists are for. So I recommend that you make a list of the people who post a little less.

@maloki Are they CFS spoons you were lacking? If so you have my heartfelt sympathy. Here's a spare spoon, just in case.

@Laurelai DUDETTE I had to get all of this out. I write yall a love letter :P

@maloki glad to see you're back and look forward to working along side you to make this fediverse thing work out for everyone

@kaniini Thank you! :) I was really tempted to tell you when you told me that "at least you got an AC out of it". I really wanted to tell you that I didn't just cash out and leave, you know? :)

@maloki Pride is an awesome thing ! You are providing a service which empowers our SW community and I am very grateful for it and you!

@maloki Ah, I think I read this a while back. CFS, right?

@adversary Yeah, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, but then the fall was just terrible (my grandmother died) then christmas was pain for 3 months until recently.

It's been a lot. But some adjustments to medicine has the CFS a lot more manageable now.

@maloki That's a whole avalanche of harsh right there ... taking time off sounded like it was necessary, even without the CFS in the mix.

Good that you've now got some more effective means of offsetting it, though. I've got something a little similar, but not quite the same: rapid onset fatigue, so I kind of have a window into it without the full CFS load (don't need to see any deeper, though, I'm sure you'll understand).

@adversary oh yeah, definitely. I can recognize that feeling too. But mostly I was just fatigued all the time.

More balance now. Ofc I'll still need to balance everything now. But I think I have a decent plan for it.

@maloki yeah, if you were drained before you could even begin then you had to take the break. Balance is ... always the tricky part, but that's pretty much the project management job description, so in a way you're ahead. ;)


Welcome back, indeed.

Pace yourself.

Be patient with your self-perception.

@Algot Thank you. :)
I had the "pace yourself" and "hold your horses" talk with my therapist today. I really needed to go have that talk before I announced that I was back.

@maloki This is good news, in more ways than one!

Welcome back, and glad you are feeling better. 🍍

@maloki welcome bal! All the best for this coming month. Great example of the importance of self care. Keep looking after yourself, and thank you for all your work. 🌈🤘🏽

@stragu thank you for such a warm welcome back. 😍

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