Oh yeah, does this thing still work?
Stuck in a tire shop waiting room. 😒
A haiku about getting out of bed:
No no no no no
No no no no no no no
No no no no no
So has the excitement died down? Is this more the way it was before I showed up? I should probably find more regulars to follow.
Many of the people I followed on here in my two week fury of Mastodon participation have already stopped tooting. 😕
Fun time hanging out with friends tonight, but now I'm already home watching Bill Nye on Netflix. Being 40something kinda sucks.
Feeling a little better now.
But right now I just want to lay on the futon in my office and sleep and nope and maybe cry. At least I'm not thinking about killing myself again, so I'm not at my worst. I really need to see a therapist.
I went nearly two months without a major depressive episode. I was starting to feel "cured." Yet here we are again. I've had this thing following me for 30 years and I know I'll probably never beat it, I'll just need to learn to live with it somehow. For starters I'll probably need to start coworking again. I need to start running again. I need to stop drinking. Ugh.
I’ve had a hard time staying focused for the past couple of days, but at least I’m being minimally productive and not getting depressed. It might not sound like much but it’s kind of a big deal for me.
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Wham. Depression. Had been doing so fucking well for months. Hit me outta nowhere.
Was Ariana Grande born yet back when the Four Non Blondes song she blatantly ripped off when popular?