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sticky for if you found my mastodon account and wanted to see art from me:

i have been very depressed for quite some time and don't really draw anymore

i hide my depression posts below a CW but there's not much else here. this is more of a journal than my other accounts

also i don't have the energy to be fun or chat or anything like that lately. it's nothing personal, i just can't right now

sorry to disappoint if that's the case. it's hard to convey via text but i mean that sincerely

bad feelings 

i've been feeling nostalgic for ms-dos games for a while

if i ever made a game i think i would want to make it 320x200 ega. adlib music, pc speaker sound effects

i did a thing with love2d a while ago that posterized the screen into the ega palette so i could like.. fade to black and have it only show ega colors. but idk how to program really haha

i tend to go overboard with shading and i think it doesn't really have the same clunky ega look that stuff like cosmo's cosmic adventure had

the only album i've felt like listening to for months is the fragile

i went through a period a couple years ago where i wasn't that into it

i think it's because it's a really potent representation of feelings that can be really scary if i'm not already feeling them

but it also feels like the only source of understanding i have about those feelings

bad feelings, substance use(?) 

anhedonia, drugs 

anhedonia, video games 

anhedonia, video games 

sticky for if you found my mastodon account and wanted to see art from me:

i have been very depressed for quite some time and don't really draw anymore

i hide my depression posts below a CW but there's not much else here. this is more of a journal than my other accounts

also i don't have the energy to be fun or chat or anything like that lately. it's nothing personal, i just can't right now

sorry to disappoint if that's the case. it's hard to convey via text but i mean that sincerely

nin lyrics 

peter gabriel lyrics 

ob-la-di ob-la-da this song suuuuucks ass, la la how this song sucks ass

nin lyrics 

bad feelings cont'd 

*BAD* feelings 

bad bad feelings 

here's AN AMAZING TRICK if you suffer from health anxiety

so you're about to google your symptoms. both you and i KNOW you're going to end up panicking because every site says you have the C word

but even though you really shouldn't, it's really hard to NOT google your symptoms

so at least add this to your search:

site:nomorepanic.co.uk

you might have to look a bit, but there will be *multiple* threads where people had your *exact* symptoms and turned out to be okay!

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