Bad feelings Show more
I went back on Twitter to see panel hashtags aaaaand I Have Regrets. The wiscon app's downvote feature is really ambiguous and anxiety inducing. I got up this morning to moderate (a very nice!) panel but I'm now exhausted. The general emotional intensity is high so I'm pretty in need of a soft blanket and a hug. Ooof.
Online harassment, transphobia disguised as righteousness on tumblr Show more
Latest tumblr drama to have crawled under my skin is public shaming and constant harassment of butch lesbians who aren't cis. The whole policing around the words butch and femme is so obviously transphobia and biphobia in a new hat I just.... *despair* 💀
HRT stuff, dysphoria Show more
So I'm planning on temporarily coming off of T starting in August to try to conceive, and in preparation for that I figured I could try slowly lowering my dose.
I cut my dose in half this week and immediately got super lethargic and depressed and didn't figure out why until day 8 of the reduced hrt.
So I might just do that sudden drop in August after all, haha. I have so much stuff to get done between now and end of July I really can't afford to lose time to dysphoria. 😑
Free makeup classes for trans and nb people (sideways corporate promotion?) Show more
I just found out that Sephora offers free makeup classes to trans and non-binary people. The copy sounds like they’re not just teaching people to look Instagram-femme, but tailor the techniques to your needs and style.
That store is hella expensive, so if you qualify, go take advantage of free stuff!
ptsd Show more
But for me healing is letting go of the parts of me that grew into that pridefully, the person who wanted to be sharp and numb, the person who dared life to go harder.
Healing is growing tender and having established such a safe space and foundation in myself that the risk is minimal.
These are my Sunday thoughts of healing, being sat in a situation that a few years ago would have broken me, and now just make me take each day as they come.
If you are healing, I hope today is good.
Future in-law responses to the coming out email have been as good as can be expected.
I'm calling that a win, looking forward to less future misgendering (or at least the right be mad when future misgendering happens, lol)
I'm drafting an email to come out to Liz's family... wish me luck! 💪 ✨ 😱
I hope no one is under the impression that just because I support sex workers that I don’t also support survivors of trafficking and abuse. Survivors matter. But SESTA/FOSTA will not help, nor will other legislation that targets sex work while still maintaining the exploitation and inequality that comes from the capitalist state.
I have satisfied my urge to be Productive by figuring out if I have enough shows/jobs going on to be able to afford to pay my inkers for FINE. Answer.... yes! Now the trick will just be to do it all with reasonable boundaries and time limits.
For me, eing sick is always an opportunity to practice the manta "my worth is not determined by my productivity" ...this is a thing I need lots of practice on.
My sinuses don't know what they're doing, but they're ready to do it at 110%. 🤧 😷
Mass Effect Andromeda Show more
I've been feeling overwhelmed and bad lately and have been playing ME:Andromeda as a distraction. My main critique is that it's just... not weird enough??? Why can't I scan every single plant? How did the same species of dinosaur things wind up on every habitable planet across the cluster??? What are the angaran cultural norms around romantic relationships??