💖 Sachairi 💖 @sachairiah@mastodon.social

They basically just shrugged when I mentioned it at my regular clinic so I think I might make an appt at the "women's" clinic downtown (my family calls it the rainbow clinic, as the sides are coloured in rainbow)

In January, I got to have 3 periods. This month, I had one that lasted from Feb 1-12.

Guess who started another period today

My comic updated today, everyone! It's my third anniversary of posting it online, but these characters have existed for 20 years! You should go read if you haven't: http://www.nientecomic.cfw.me

I bought a jar of dill pickles night before last.

We finished them this morning 😱

Comic is updated! To go live valentines day, I hope it displays normal as I did it all from my iPad for the first time

I JUST WANT HIM TO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE

I feel like I'm online a lot but I dont actually post often

I hope to fix that one day soon (help I've been wanting to do a lot more than I have the time to do)

If I was dead people would eventually stop touching me, that's a nice thought

I dont want to die, but I also sort of do. I dont like feeling like this

I'm so tired of asking for help and not getting it.

I just want something I do to matter.

I really need to stay off Facebook, esp when I'm already struggling with depression.

I saw a friend I know just had a baby and they're already out relaxing and I'm so mad that I cant relate to that. I hate that I'm isolated. I hate that when I get the rare invite to a place, I always have to say no.

I hate that I dont have the access to sitters/ family that everyone else does.

I dont know why I'm here

Heads up that February is always the hardest month for me to get through

Only the walls seem to hear me

What's exhausting is that I've been asking very loudly for a very long time for some help, please, please please and its just not coming

Why do we treat mothers this way?? Why do I need to be sitting here, thinking that at least if I were dead I wouldn't be so fucking tired

I really just need to get out of my house for a few days and not have to manage anyone's emotions, appts, or therapy. I would like to just sit in a room, alone, and draw. Maybe speak with other adults, esp any that have no expectation of fking touching me in any way

I've literally never let him touch my nipples before anyone comes in suggesting I make him stop- i sit with my arms folded as hard as possible, which isn't helping my arm injuries btw

I'd like to just remove my stupid breasts entirely at this point

I've been working on weaning my baby (toddler) for several months. I'm not getting anywhere. Hes constantly digging at my nipples and it takes a lot for me not to just throw him on the floor- I love him but I am SO DONE with being pinched/ pulled/ scratched/ bitten all day and throughout the night

My period has been visiting me every five days or so. My abdomen hurts. I'm tired. My baby is two now and still is up all thru the night, sometimes hours at a time.

I feel lucky that I dont live near a bridge.