💖 Sachairi 💖 @sachairiah@mastodon.social

I have the lowest libido, I experience absolutely no sexual attraction, and my body has a very hard time getting to any amount of... my body doesnt want it to happen, my brain would rather it not happen, it works against me lol

Husband has been hinting that we dont do the thing as much as allo couples do

I know we don't. I already feel bad about it but just.. I wouldnt be able to do the thing 2x a week. I dont even want to do it once a week, I'm tired and there are so many other things I could be doing

I'm very discouraged, I feel like my face isn't meant for makeup and I'm very ugly

I dont know, I'm having a rough time

Super deep wrinkles around the mouth, it looks like someone cut into my face, always visible

Fine lines around the eyes (these arent as bad as my other issues)

So many wrinkles on my forehead, also can be seen all the time

Deep anger line between eyebrows, also visible at all times

Hooded eyes sag a lot, I can see that I'll likely need surgery one day to be able to see cuz they're going to hang so much

Husband has a few greys and whites coming in, but he doesnt have a single wrinkle on his face.

I have no greys but my face is a map of all wrinkles and it makes me so sad and angry.

I was supposed to go see otty and Sonya in BC next year (haven't seen them in 10 years) and now I dont want to go because I've aged so terribly

I think I want to get a beginner eyebrow kit. (saw one at sephora)

Also want to get some items that would take some age out of my face. I dont have any grey hair but my stress and age is showing in my face and I hate it. I feel like I shouldnt be seen by people

Guess who's back
Back again

Anyway: eyeshadow. Friends, I am having SUCH A ROUGH TIME. I'm being so careful when trying to apply, but my eyes are SO hooded. I've watched a few hooded eye tutorials but my hood just... drops so much into my lid that everything is transferring.

I've found that I cant do under eye liner (brings my eyes way down, I'm trying to look LESS tired) and trying to figure out out how to do it on the top lid (it skips over the top)

I'm very happy with how I apply highlighter, I think that's my favourite. I don't use contours, and I'm learning blush! (I find once it's on, it's really hard to blend out if I accidentally put too much on, but I'm getting there!)

I dont use highlighter on my nose at all cuz I dont like its shape and dont want to bring attention to it. I put the smallest amount of blush on my nose instead!

Hi yes I'm back, had to do stuff for my kid.

So I'm fairly comfortable putting on foundation now. My favourite method is with a sponge!

Concealer is good too, although I think I need a colour corrector- I still look so tired! Also need to figure out how to prevent crepes under my eyes (suggestions?) I no longer bake.

My eyes are notorious for running constantly (seasonal allergies, any amount of wind, if the sun is too bright) and a friend recommended using eye primer before foundation and I think its helping? I don't get much of a chance to use my stuff consistently.

I have a very real fear my foundation will expire before I can use it all (I swear it smells more chemically than it did when I first got it)

Makeup: I have learned the order in which products have to go on my face, all before foundation, and honestly I'm shook?

1. Clean face
2. "Hydrating serum"
3. Moisturizer. I'm really loving the tinted one in nude from glamglow
4. Primer

Make sure all these dry before foundation, or else the foundation pulls! Embarrassing

So I bought skin care oct of last year, and roughly a month later, started buying make up.

In skincare, I have noticed that my skin looks less textured, under eyes look better, and my pores appear smaller. My skin looks more glowy, too!

However, I now have more pimples than I did back before I started. I assume it's due to moisturising? Perhaps I need to let my skin not have anything on it for a while?

Without moisturizing my skin feels tight, tho 😭

Children

Why

Sharp pain going up the drawing arm 😭😬

Tip top tailors didn't do this on purpose, but look! Asexual and transgender themed ties!

"Vacation"

I really like my foundation and it matches my neck 100%, but it seems to be bleaching me out? It's hard to explain bc its doing exactly what it should- taking out redness, concealing bumps, and hiding my dark under eye circles. However, everyone (husband and 6yo) thinks it makes me real white