My period is also a huge factor in a lot of this. Even tho I know it's coming, I cant reason with my premenstrual brain. Everything is awful, I'm an anxious mess, and I cant see my way out. The fog only lifts once my cycle starts (hi, my period arrived today).
I've begged for stuff to help with that, (mostly for them to give me stuff in which my cycle wouldnt come anymore) but maybe an antidepressant is something I just need to do.
I do know what a lot of my issues are and what is causing me stress. I've been unmedicated for almost 2 mos now for my anxiety, after finally getting a handle on it, and they still havent sent my meds. And now I need to wait, again, because while I could have afforded it awhile ago, I cant right now.
Another reason I wanted to make a channel tho because I just want to reach people. I have nobody to talk to. I've taken big steps back from areas where I am formally invited, but I feel like a massive burden.
I desperately need a community tho, I'm friggen suffocating. I feel like my needs are higher than everyone else, but between having kids and being sick myself, it's not surprising I'm isolated. People dont care about parents or the disabled.
Issues with my face/ youtube
I think a lot of the premature aging in my face was due to my disordered eating (ana for the majority of my life, never formally treated). I've never been overweight, but I did have a lot of baby fat in my face up until i was 25 or so.
My face thinned out a lot after delivering my first child/ my dx of POTS, and I cant seem to put weight back there. My mouth lines are the deepest I've seen of anyone my age.
Issues with my face/ youtube
So I've been wanting to make videos for a long time. I had floundered as a parent when my child was confirmed to be autistic. There is more info now than there was, but I had to figure out, by myself, what next. Esp as a Canadian- all the info I was finding was American.
Anyway. I want to make educational/ community based videos to help other canadians (and anyone fresh from dx!) but I cannot deal with how I look?!
My comic has updated! The plot thickens http://www.nientecomic.cfw.me
6yo has been acting out against me in anger, which is... better than anyone else and I've been trying for a while to handle it at home.
He proudly admitted to threatening his worker with scissors today. His EA (different person) mentioned that he wouldnt work today, so they took the day easy and followed his lead.
It wasnt til he had been home for an hour or so that HE told me about the scissors so I have no idea about the details yet.
Beginner webcomic artist, mom of two, #asexual, disabled, she/ her
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