I do know what a lot of my issues are and what is causing me stress. I've been unmedicated for almost 2 mos now for my anxiety, after finally getting a handle on it, and they still havent sent my meds. And now I need to wait, again, because while I could have afforded it awhile ago, I cant right now.
My period is also a huge factor in a lot of this. Even tho I know it's coming, I cant reason with my premenstrual brain. Everything is awful, I'm an anxious mess, and I cant see my way out. The fog only lifts once my cycle starts (hi, my period arrived today).
I've begged for stuff to help with that, (mostly for them to give me stuff in which my cycle wouldnt come anymore) but maybe an antidepressant is something I just need to do.
I have always run on fear. That's part of the reason I hide things, and i think it comes from the PTSD. I am just so scared of what might happen.
I also seem to be rather high functioning when it comes to anxiety and maybe depression.
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