i came to the realization today in the shower that maybe mom never really intervened w/dad and corporal punishment bc she was socialized to accept it as ok and not bc she didn't feel like protecting me
but upon thinking about it i reframed it a little, i hadn't taken into account how strong the trini culture/socializing about child punishment could be. like she probably didn't KNOW my personality changes were even connected to beltings
it doesn't really help me Feel Better overall realizing this, honestly it just makes me feel even more alone in my recovery. but i think it's closer to the truth of the matter and that counts for SOMETHING.