I just feel so tired, constantly fighting with my own mind, feeling like a failure because this one big thing I put priority and importance on, I can't get myself to do it. Maybe I'm not taking the right starting steps. I did a bunch of other tasks I wanted to do previously, which probably aren't as important and instead of feeling accomplishments for finally doing them, the feeling of guilt mounts instead. Because of the one big thing.
Then the stress builds and builds and builds. Nobody is giving me pressure, only myself, and yet I managed to give myself crippling amount of stress.
Months of trying to manage my energy, my stress levels, and the one time I try to push myself a little further, try to do an art thing that I never had the guts to do, plan a special stream for in a months' time, I overload myself.
Not sure if deciding to break my Twitter/internet reading addiction is contributing too. It was originally how I unwind too. May be feeling lost because of that too. And everything just... compounds together. And I can't breathe
@shizuyue having recently had medical leave to give myself some mental health time away from workplace stress, I empathise with you.
I won't say I know how it feels, or hang in there. It's different for everyone.
What I will say is just take care of yourself and do what *you* think you need to do to get you on through. Your friends and family will care enough about you to understand.
@bcshort Thank you. You are right, they will care enough to understand. I just need to remember that.
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