Nikole Tiffany Powell @thecanterlonian@mastodon.social

hey listen y'all
if i stop showing up here, not responding to @s or messages or if i just go offline, it's not because i want to leave, my living situation is kinda shitty and i may not be ABLE to get online soon, as much as i love you all, i might just not have ACCESS to the internet and it scares me too, most of my life is spent online but that's just how life is i guess...

self loathing

i would rather kill myself than end up in a mental health ward

so big tip:
don't read those books when ur depressed af

reading those books when you have depression and also very few possessions is an absolute nightmare tho because nothing in the house sparks any joy at all but you think you deserve it and you think that when you get rid of everything you will finally be happy but then you find yourself with nothing but food, toiletries and a bed and two sets of clothing one ur wearing and one for when you wash your clothes and it feels like you have nothing left to come home to

hey listen y'all
if i stop showing up here, not responding to @s or messages or if i just go offline, it's not because i want to leave, my living situation is kinda shitty and i may not be ABLE to get online soon, as much as i love you all, i might just not have ACCESS to the internet and it scares me too, most of my life is spent online but that's just how life is i guess...

calming down now