like I objectively know the situation is stupid and I shouldn't care and that if anyone is mad at me it's dumb and unfounded, but the fucking gerbil that's running the panic centre of my brain won't be stopped by such trivial things as facts, apparently. Love that.
Self discipline is doing it slowly and lessening the impulses and severity of the panic, but I truly yearn for a day where I'm just Not Like This anymore
been watching some videos from licensed childhood trauma therapists on codependency and the need for everything to be ok in order to feel safe/calm etc and feeling very called out hahaha
bleggghh I've gotten a real bad cold, was sent home from the office to work from home because I was a mess lol. Keep taking LF tests but they're negative so that's some good news at least
Super nervous my boss is mad at me for it or something even tho it was her idea for me to work from home, and my coworker is being really passag so I'm really stressed lol
Forgot about happy ending and it came on and I'm
Fuck my life, seeing China's crackdown on LGBT rights and representation is absolutely awful but seeing people pee their pants because the biggest impact to them is they might lose their genshin impact bishounen jpegs is so angering
Most of them aren't even young there's just no excuse for being so shallow I hate the internet lol
admittedly my coworker is a lot younger than me and her issues lately have been a lot more...immediate than mine I guess, but bahhhh
one day i swear to god i'm gonna be my own boss and not take anyone's shit anymore, manifesting this for my future self big time 💪
having my boss at work be really dismissive of mental health struggles is starting to frustrate me a bit lol, I see her offhandedly talking about trying not to roll her eyes at people who say they have social anxiety etc and I'm a bit
she knows I struggle with mental health as well (I was pretty clear from the start) so it's just a bit....galling, esp when she shows so much sympathy and care to my coworker when she's struggling
The older I get the more I appreciate cows. They're just so chill.
I remember as a teen when I was spending the summer on my aunt's horse farm in france there was a cow with her baby in a nearby field and she let us pet her and the calf and lie down next to them and everything. Tbh I've not known bliss like that since
I want to be generous/understanding but if it turns out I've been waiting all this time for nothing and I could have been at home by now I'm gonna be so angry I'm not gonna lie
Giving it another half hour and then I'm just gonna leave
Lmfaoo I never fucking learn do I. Offered to go with a former work friend to the emergency room BC she needs someone to go with qnd I've been sat around in town since I got out of work for two hours while she's getting ready, don't even know if she's taking the piss or not but I'm getting really fucked off
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