vix @vixlingr@mastodon.social
girls own the void
@vixlingr on twitter etc.
http://inkling.blue
It seems like the local timeline is going to be the thing that potentially saves my mind from the world that daily threatens to rot it into tiny little brainshreds (which are perfect for tacos - summer is coming)!
Is there a directory of instances and what they're oriented around? I'd particularly like to find art instances maybe? Not sure.
I just added a bunch of people I think I recognize from other people's follow lists. Cultivating lists here is... tiring.
I don't think I have the mental bandwidth to sort out the challenges of Mastodon right now.
Wire - 154 is an album I wish I'd been introduced to when I was younger.
Okay. As this apparently doesnt scale I finally move over to social.,tchncs.de and this account will die. please follow zauberlaus@social.tchncs.de if i am still alive when you read this
A 10/10 is a dream where my SO is super mad at me.
However, none of these edged into night terror scale, which is entirely separate.
Last night's anxiety dreams:
1: Trying to ride the bus with no exact change or fare card (8/10)
2: Banana on pizza (7/10)
3: Having a freakout and putting a sleeve over my entire head (9/10)
4: Trying to get my SO to move into the huge house I somehow acquired which also had secret passageways (5/10)
Overall dream anxiety rating: FUCK FUCK FUCKF F UCJFFFFF
Whitechapel pls sound off I can't find you #whitechapel
Cellphones are some monkey's paw shit.
"You can have infinite realms of information and communication at your fingertips, but...
you must NEVER be separated by more than 6 feet! If you do, severe anxiety and fear for you, concern and anger from friends and family. You are chained to it... FOREVER!!"
One time as a young person I sent unsolicited nudes to a crush. Nudes taken with an actual 35mm film camera and then clandestinely scanned at Kinko's and sent in email (or DCC? I forget).
On receipt, he said nothing about me and instead brutally critiqued my photography: the composition, exposure, focus. I never did it again.
There's no real lesson here, just a story. Met that guy again later in life and guess what, he was cruel. Go figure. Some people are like that. Keep your nudes.
Strong interests are books/comics/movies/tv in sci-fi, horror genres, infosec, learning ruby to build dumb stuff, growing and learning, accepting mistakes, being ridiculous, surviving pain, lip balm and gabapentin.
Oh, are we doing #introductions ? I'm @vixlingr on twitter as well. I'm an artist and writer. I'm disabled by bipolar disorder. I'm energized by beautiful art, music, and people who care deeply about justice. I need to put up a new art page but some silly "fake music" lives at http://inkling.blue
I just realized I can shitpost all I want on Twitter and still segregate out serious thoughts here, or vice versa depending on how the populations shake out. I really like the privacy filters here, similar to LiveJournal of old. Makes this a feasable platform for real-life interaction too (fear).
The only thing I want to listen to is Lorde - Green Light on repeat.
I'm really used to pruning my musings to 140 character chunks, so having this larger space to expand feels really strange. I don't have to choose shorter words, omit articles or punctuation. I've sort of enjoyed the compression of Twits, but stretching out feels pretty good too.
I'm... I'm here. It feels echoey, and big.
