I'm streaming on giving a bunch of first impressions from Humble Bundle's TROVE!

dlive.tv/SeaJr

I sleep now. I pray for a more calm mind when I wake. I pray that I'm not inundated with fear and panic and I can made progress in my task.

I can't wake up and have a full day if I sleep late like this =n=

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How do I conquer my sleep procrastination? 2:40am my eyes are tired af, I know I gotta sleep but I'm. Just on my phone :angery:

If I made my mother watch all of Steven Universe do you think she'd learn empathy?

It's like the third time queer party has been down in the past two weeks so I think its time to find a new instance 🤔

I'm going live on ! Hunt: Showdown! We played excellent games last night, let's see if we can continue that trend!

🌟 dlive.tv/SeaJr 🌟

stressing 

Played Papers Please to distract me from my stress and then spent 3 minutes looking into my assignment and had every panicy feeling come straight back. I want to die. I cannot function.

finance 

I'm down to my last $2000 spending money.. I used to have 5x that but I've whittled it down over the year.... I keep telling myself to cut down spending but I don't. I need work to sTART. But it's still weeks away I guess??

How cursed. To secure a job then have that job not start for two months.

Have I don't literally nothing for the past hour+ other than panic? Yes. Absolutely. Does it help? No. Not at all.

stressing 

Oh even if i give up on this late assignment. I have this one due TODAY and then the next one is due in just a weeks time.

stressing 

I don't know how to unwind and relax. I feel nothing but anxiety and fear every time I try and work.

Do I need to self medicate? Will ADHD meds help? Anti depressants I've tried did nothing, talking therapy did nothing. I want to do well, do the work I'm capable of doing. But I can't. And I'm scared that I'm going to be fighting with myself for the rest of my life.

How can I have a successful career if I'm fucking up this badly at a uni level?!

stressing 

I don't know what to do I don't know what to do,, other than just gIVE UP!

I could go work on my other assignment. Maybe email my teach and see if there's anything she can do. But fuck me it's a bad look to be asking for an extention a week after the last one ended.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Sure I got sick but that just compounded the existing issue. Lost me a few precious days,, just as I'd started working too. =_=

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stressing 

If I fail it will utterly TANK my average grade (and say goodbye to the uni job I was Just thinking of applying to)

I wonder if there's an recourse to get a late withdrawal even though I've already missed the deadline (by a week typical)

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stressing 

Oh god oh god oh god today is the last day I can submit my assignment before I'm given a UG and it's already 4pm,,, 2,500 I could start but I'd never finish it

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