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#bipolar

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pasjrwoctx👽

I Could Really Truly Use Some HELP and SUPPORT Right NOW!

I am a #disabled man living in #poverty, my #disability is 60% physical and 40% mental, and as I get older, both of those are increasingly hard to deal with, each day I try to do what I can where I live, as part of my rent is to help out when and as I can, but that is getting harder and harder to do, I am spent, between losing what little strength and physical ability I have left and not getting decent sleep nor having a decent diet, things just keep getting harder, and that causes my #anxiety to get worse which causes my #bipolar to cycle, which causes more lack of sleep, and I am in constant pain, and on and on it goes, at 47 years old I sure wish people could see the value in helping me #fundraise $5million dollars so that I can buy my own property and build my forever home, and have everything I need to never have to worry again, and to alleviate the stress of my day to day situation, and so I can really just age at a pace that wont effect anyone or anything, because in my own home, if I cant or dont feel like it I dont have to do anything for days, weeks, or months at a time and no one can get mad at me. People seem to forget that I am disabled and they dont realize I am getting older, nor do they comprehend that I simply cant afford #food to eat 3 meals a day, often not even one meal a day, that I have no #healthcare, people in general expect me to just keep going like the energizer bunny, when the reality is I am an old broke down ford truck, that on occasion I can get fired up and get a few things done, but more often than not, I really dont have the gas to even stand up, being #disabled and living in #poverty Fucking Sucks! you cant afford to eat when your hungry, you cant afford to take care of your health, you cant afford anything a person needs in life, Poverty Fucking Sucks, but when Your Disabled, it Fucking Blows, and every little thing is compounded a 1000 times and no one really cares to help you. I have so many unseen issues, most don’t realize the true difficulty I endure each day, first I don’t sleep well, for many reasons, from a brain that is constantly in overdrive, to relentless nightmares, to being in constant pain, to not having a decent supportive bed to sleep on, so my days start of painful, tired and overwhelmed before I even get going, Often I go hungry because living in #poverty I simply can not afford #food to eat, I typically only get around 600-800 calories a day when a man my size and age should be getting around 3000 calories a day, as a result despite my appearance I suffer from malnutrition, I have a great deal of difficulty cleaning my tiny cave, from not being able to afford the basics to have cleaning supplies to being physically limited in my ability to do so, I cant hardly bend over, nor can I very easily get up and down off the floor, taking a shower can simply become a serious challenge, and often leaves my exhausted not to mention I cant often afford the basics for personal hygiene, simply washing a dish or standing at the stove at times can be brutal on my back, then there are chores I need to tend to as part of my rent, and those absolutely can be a painful and exhaustive event for me, and those around often don’t even realize and expect more as a result, and if I say I have had enough today, I am questioned, because they assume I did what I did with ease, but they have no idea of the pain and struggle I had to endure to deal with to accomplish the tasks at hand, reading has become trouble some, as world become very blurry and melt together, writing is becoming increasingly difficult, as finding the words is getting harder and harder, being creative used to help but I have been in so much pain, and under so much stress that I often cant even muster up the energy to attempt to be creative, not to mention my camera is failing, my laptop is struggling, and again no money to obtain what I actually need, I have no #healthcare because the laws people pass have really messed that up, and after years fighting to get it resolved I have given up, so I fight through each day to just to suffer the next, I reach out constantly for financial support yet receive nearly nothing compared to what I actually need, this #disable man exists in #poverty, constant pain and my #anxiety exacerbates my #ptsd, my #bipolar cycles, and several other issues, my blood pressure has been all over the place and frankly in a rather obscenely high range for to long, my core body temp has been far lower than the average, while I often feel as though I am on fire, things get darker with my sight each day, and yet to bright, I hear and see so much that is not actually there, so very much wrong and no support nor help to be found, it would really truly help if people could and would help me #fundriase the money I need each day to live, and the money I need to set up a life where I can take care of myself and lessen the effects of poverty and disability on an aging body and mind.

$5-10-15 It All Helps, via #cashapp at $woctxphotog or via #paypal at paypal.com/donate?campaign_id=…

www.paypal.comHelp PhilipUnterstützen Sie Philip A. Swiderski Jr, indem Sie spenden oder diese Nachricht mit Ihren Freunden teilen.
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Bug Hunter Cat

This year there are legislative elections in my country (Argentina), and it will be the 16th consecutive year I haven't voted. In 2011, when my current wife moved in with me in Mendoza, I went to vote in the primary elections, and when I got to the door, my autistic ass got angry because there were so many people, and I decided not to vote (I didn't know then that I was autistic and had just been released from a psychiatric hospital). Two months later, I didn't vote in the general elections either. I had already decided never to vote again and to break the social contract.
When my father asked me why I wasn't going to vote again (he has been active in politics almost his entire life), I replied: "I don't owe anything to a society that doesn't care about me."
I ruined my health forever and almost lost my life several times serving my country (ex-military, ex-police, etc.) because of the whims of son-of-a-bitch politicians.
Never again.

#democracy#farce#politics
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ᗪave

I have a mood disorder. What that means is I have issues regulating my emotions.

Let me let you in on a secret. It fucking sucks MOST of the time.

So on those rare occasions my #bipolar has me feeling amazing I refuse to feel guilty while I enjoy it.

Its my fucking silver lining. Just keep my credit card away from me.

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kali

last week i was going to get my meds and the pharmacist told me that i got the last package they still have left before a supply chain fuckup stopped the delivery.

the US is the main producer of these, according to chatGPT...

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pasjrwoctx👽

At 47 years old, I am far to old for this much suffering and struggling every single day, from never having enough #food to eat, to not having a supportive mattress to sleep on, to struggle to afford to maintain my personal hygiene and the cleanliness of my tiny cave, to living in constant pain, to having my #health deteriorate, to having clothing and shoes that are not falling apart to worrying about the roof I am under, so much of my troubles could be lessened if only people would come together and Actually Help this #disabled man living in #poverty, if 5 million people all gave just $1.80 say in the next 24 hours, I would have all the money I need to buy property and build a forever home, as well as have enough money to take care of myself for the rest of my life, and maybe just maybe be a position to really help others as well, I really wish people could and would see the value in helping me, I am tired of being hungry everyday, I am tired of worrying about I am going to take care of myself each day, I am tired of the added burdens that make my #disablity that much worse, and I am tired of people simply not caring about others. $5-10-15 It All Helps, via #cashapp at $woctxphotog or via #paypal at paypal.com/donate?campaign_id=…

#bipolar,#woctxphotog,#anxiety,#cashapp,#DisabilityAwareness,#DisabilitySupport,#disabled,#food,#FromHungerToHope,#fundraise,#groceries,#health,#HopeRestored,#MentalHealthMatters,#MutualAid,#MutualAidHelp ,#Paypal,#poverty,#PovertyRelief,#pasjrwoctx

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Muninn 🍃

I feel grateful to have experienced a period of ultra-rapid bipolar cycling in my life, as it gave me perspective on my own emotions which has proven valuable in all the many challenging circumstances I have faced since then.

Though the extremes were medication-induced, I am a naturally moody person and without any meds I would still exist on the edge of the #Bipolar spectrum. But these days I understand how to lean into that moodiness. Feeling shitty? Wait a minute. Distract if necessary.

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ᗪave

Talmud (Sanhedrin 37a): “Whoever saves a single life is considered by scripture to have saved the whole world entire.

If you find yourself in that dark place please know you are loved and help is available. You deserve to feel better and you are NOT alone in that pain.

#bipolar#depression
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pasjrwoctx👽

Is There Any Hope, Or Compassion Left In This World?

I am a #disabled man living in #poverty, my #disability is 60% physical and 40% mental, and as I get older, both of those are increasingly hard to deal with, each day I try to do what I can where I live, as part of my rent is to help out when and as I can, but that is getting harder and harder to do, I am spent, between losing what little strength and physical ability I have left and not getting decent sleep nor having a decent diet, things just keep getting harder, and that causes my #anxiety to get worse which causes my #bipolar to cycle, which causes more lack of sleep, and I am in constant pain, and on and on it goes, Today is March 22nd my 47th #birthday, and I sure wish by the grace of God, somehow people help me #fundraise $5million dollars so that I can buy my own property and build my forever home, and have everything I need to never have to worry again, and to alleviate the stress of my day to day situation, and so I can really just age at a pace that wont effect anyone or anything, because in my own home, if I cant or dont feel like it I dont have to do anything for days, weeks, or months at a time and no one can get mad at me. People seem to forget that I am disabled and they dont realize I am getting older, nor do they comprehend that I simply cant afford #food to eat 3 meals a day, often not even one meal a day, that I have no #healthcare, people in general expect me to just keep going like the energizer bunny, when the reality is I am an old broke down ford truck, that on occasion I can get fired up and get a few things done, but more often than not, I really dont have the gas to even stand up. $5-10-15 It All Helps, via #cashapp at $woctxphotog or via #paypal at paypal.com/donate?campaign_id=…

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