When I was a little girl who was AMAB, I didn't know the word "transgender." I still don't really embrace it as a description of my identity, and I don't participate in a lot of online trans culture because of it.
I was just a little girl. And I had to make sense of that as best I could, on top of trying to convince other people. I was convinced god made a mistake.
And that's a terrible situation for a child to be in, especially in a hostile environment.
So yeah, it's personal.