pencilled in a whole day of doin' fffffffUCKIN' NOTHIN' because good lord i've been firing on all cylinders for the past week.
food Show more
tomorrow I'm serving a five course dinner party and I'm a certain combination of extremely anxious and excited, but also like....exhausted?
Like, I basically know the rest of today and tomorrow, and the foreknowledge of it but still having to like, _do_ it gives me a weird sense of existential anxiety.
i maybe only """party""" by going out exactly once a month to a quiet home for boardgames because i'm a boring baby
i am very tired and gay and also work is almost over AND THEN IT'S MUHFUCKIN' PARTY TIME
Creative stuff Show more
This is probably the most creatively fertile I've been in years, like, I don't think I would normally be able to do literally any of what I'm doing six months ago. Like, *any* of it, instead of three different things, like, simultaneously.
But I'm also quietly happy in a way I haven't been, basically ever? And unsurprisingly, I suspect these things are related.
comics coloring illustration Show more
I basically haven't done any coloring or illustration in like......I dunno, ten years? And after like, maybe two days of grinding, flatting, and random fuckin' arounds this is where I'm at, so, actually feeling p decent.
There's a lot that could be done Better or at least More Right, involving correctly identifying additional light sources but IDGAF because I'm friggin' whooped.
**does exactly one test page for a dude**
**gets hired without a portfolio**
jesus how does that work. i know the contract is small but still what the fresh hell my dude.
coloring Show more
earlier: "man, greebles are so great, I want every visual thing I look at to contain maximum greebling"
me, pretending to be a colorist: "actually greebles are the worst and if you so much as think about putting a ring on this character or so help me a ring on every finger I will actually devour you whole."
comics coloring timeline: Show more
8 AM: Alright, let's do this thing!!!
11 AM: Oh....shit, y'know, I should probably use a different rendering method for this.
2 PM: Cripes if this idiot actually hires me to do this, not only is he an idiot but I'll be an idiot and only trash can result.
4 PM: ???...Oh, this looks Pretty Decent and maybe I can Actually Do This...?!?!?!?
cool 2 be accidentally coloring with flux still on, and then turn it off and GOOD LORD WHAT WAS I DOING.
racism Show more
anyway "the history of white people" is a good book because it is thoroughly backed and sober telling of how whiteness is totally made up and imposed on people and that's bad, and we should get rid of it
we can't just drop it, because there are people squeezed under it, but we need to dissolve it for sure
other highlights: holy crap so many celebrity early USA writers were self satisfied bigots
Might be starting doing flats and other coloring tasks for a comic artist i met at work and i'm like...........low key super excited about this.