Jaybird @jaybird@mastodon.social

At some point in my 30s I leveled up into surly teenage levels of "fuck this shit", I guess because I was too desperately needy as an actual teen. Anyway, I think this middle aged surly is permanent, so.

Meanwhile for some reason my conservative sister in law follows me on Facebook and occasionally throws out talking points that my gajillion liberal fb ppl immediately leap on. Not sure if I should engage, because I didn't make her follow me.

Hello welcome to random midnight thoughts with jaybird

I would like to know that whatever twist in our brains makes us commit genocide is unique to us because then it might also be curable.

Our fear as humans is that aliens will be bigger stronger assholes, but what if they are stronger, smarter and also super nice and just baffled by our weird hateful destructiveness.

I need to sleep but I keep fantasizing about being abducted by aliens and living in a luxurious spalike zoo and never working again.

I remain confused about why so many ppl are so terrible to so many other ppl. Just, in general.

Doc gave me steroid + B12 shot today to help flu recovery. Feels good but weeeeird. So tired of this coughing crap.

I think I might be approaching the end of a long relationship and I'm trying not to let it Ruin Everything good in my life.

I have a meeting today at which I will try, and maybe fail, to convince someone that the thing they want to do is not actually a great idea. This is a lot of my job.

I seem to switch between here and bird site. Here is so restful. There has lots of my friends but also Nazis.

Instead of an actual photo, why couldn't I represent myself with a picture of, say, a leopard in a hat? That would be cuter and more memorable.

Have to take an official portrait for work tomorrow, already told photog we ain't done till I ok it, because the camera has never been kind to me, even when I was thinner. I often wish I could just use an avatar to represent myself everywhere instead.

Getting ready for bed in a nice hotel room, but still wish I was home. Work keeping me busy, politics keeping me stressed, relationship w/ spouse kinda rocky and I basically need a vacation from my own brain.

I cannot wait to work hard the rest of this week, work hard saturday and sunday, drive 5 hours, and collapse on a hotel bed before I start the next week :/

I did not do all the things I planned to this weekend, thanks to stomach flu, but about noon today I started feeling human and not like absolute death, so nothing is gonna bring me down. Why do stomach flus make you feel *so bad* in comparison to head colds and coughs? Never had a head cold that gave me that "Oh god kill me" feeling that stomach flu does.

I have a church conundrum. I'm UU. My very fave part of the service is the silent meditation. But our lovely minister TALKS for minutes beforehand, the kind of meditation talk that tells you what to think about/focus on. It actually makes me angry. Ring the bell and let me meditate, lady!

Son and I appear to be over our stomach flu enough to go to Thanksgiving, here's hoping we're right. Cause I cleaned up enough vomit this week already.