I'd just like to interject for a moment.
GitHub is not a system of oppression unto itself, but rather another controlled component of a fully oppressive capitalist system made useful by tireless lobbying, shell companies and rotting essential infrastructure comprising a fully oppressive system as envisioned by our glorious leader, AYN RAND.
I'm a homeless hacker whose politics are best described by Anarchism without adjectives.
My life goal is free and open hardware to automate the production of basic necessities.
I also make #propaganda and write about things.
I am chronically suicidal; My attachment style is insecure-disordered. 😞🔫
I always have this pattern happen to me:
People say they want to help me, I tell them over and over and over again that what I absolutely need and am sorely lacking is social integration.
Then as soon as my state deteriorates so far that I can't fake being socially functional anymore, I'm almost immediately abandoned; social integration is actively withheld by those people who are socially privileged because they prioritize the social integration of everyone else in the group above mine.
Over the last 10 or so years, #IT as well as my perception of it has fundamentally changed.
I used to think that IT *had* problems – nowadays I think it *is* a problem.
Now, I'm seeing it primarily as a means of "soft" subjugation – the way #surveillance is getting built into everything in a way supporting (capitalist) power structures and IT people by and large not giving a rats ass has become a systemic issue of late capitalism.
@phryk it's frustrating how everyone talks about "let's talk mental health" and raising awarenesses and shit and yet in general the reaction from outside still is "do more exercising and some yoga why don't you want to get good?"
It took me upwards of a decade to build up the ability to talk about this shit and all I end up asking myself is why I even bothered.
People can't deal with these topics anyways and will find ways to make you suffer for it, essentially punishing you for your suffering.
Over the last year I've basically re-learned not talking about how I'm doing with my mental health issues.
Because doing that resulted in me being abandoned and imprisoned.
This turned out to be one of the major traumas of my life and in hindsight looks like the one that broke the camels' back for me.
Now I'm just keeping it all in while my state degrades further and further.
I know this is antithetical to any recuperation but I can't and won't risk this happening to me again, ever.
Oh, and there's been two #sequoia releases in the meantime, including 1.0! My port should catch up.
Weird tho, could've sworn I had registered to some service that should've sent me a mail for every new release…
Truly, I haz the stupid.
I've now been looking to get a single inch into what I need to do for my semi-procedural world generation in #blender, but I'm just completely and utterly stuck at step one…
All I want is to be able to attach some extra information to vertices and the like, so that I can just click onto a vertex in edit mode and get a UI panel or whatever to control the attached info…
"On suicide: Or why I should be given the means to end my life painlessly"
No, it's not acute, but this article has still been a long time coming.
Hey yall, I really need help and am not sure what to do anymore
My wisdom teeth are very super impacted and they hurt and keep getting worse. And I also have cavities that I really need fixed. But unfortunately i live in the US I can’t afford $4000 for these essential procedures on my own
More info in my gofundme link below but if y’all could donate\boost\help in any way it’d mean a lot to me
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Another effect of this dynamic is that the only people helping those without social privilege are those with the same lack.
Damaged people helping damaged people. Which can be a nice way of solidarity between those affected, but need I remind you of what became of the incel community?
What it became isn't only the result of those in that community, but is just as much shaped by the exclusionary practices of socially privileged people.
There is no excuse for this shit and as long as something that's literally just taking the choice not to be exclusionary fuckwads isn't getting fixed, how am I ever supposed to believe the structures and orgs you build can render any meaningful resistance to powerful external structures when you can't even get shit done where NOTHING is in your way?
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