tef @tef@mastodon.social

big depression brain day

token: twitter's broken toot

FRIENDSHIP ended with PROGRAMMERS

NOW I am friends with ORNITHOLOGISTS

i set my camera to "britpop"

ok, this pic is from the 6th of march

it's been a good week for crow pics if i'm honest

this is all stuff i've taken this week, too

i have so so many crow pictures

here's another crow

here's a crow

hello i've taken a lot of pictures of crows

why? i want to generate C for my parsers, and I want to generate python, or ruby extensions, and python seems a lot nicer than c preprocessor macros

sticking a builder-dsl atop seems a nice way to get there, even spitting out a makefile to go with the .c and .h files

i like the idea of writing data structures & a gc to go along with it, but who knows if it gets further than a tweet or two

idly mulling over generating C code from python, for various reasons

part of it is the toy parser, i'm already generating python—i could just tweak bits and spit out C from templates—but I want to take a different approach

$ python3 example.py exec
- generating example.c
- building 'example'
Hello, World!

and something like

class Hello(Unit, include=[Stdio]):
@ Function()
def main(self, locals, args):
self.printf("Hello, world!\n")

i guess it's a c-ast dsl in python

hello void, mind if i scream?

did my end of year writeup, as is traditional now https://figg.livejournal.com/349888.html

after my disco binge last year and nile rogers fixation i am pleased to announce i have moved onto city pop

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YixAD9GIAuY

it might seem silly that i only tend to post here when the bird site goes down, but it does do that with enough frequency that i regularly toot here, so

turns out autistic masking is a very effective way to have friendships that only feel like a burden

if i have to grind myself down, if i have go through the humiliation of asking for help and watching the disappointment, i guess i can do that

but, well, when it all goes wrong, and i'm expected to know how to fix it, well, i never learned any good coping strategies or masking for that

i almost feel like i could performatively apologize and get away with it—hit the keyword scans neurotypicals run—they've never cared for behaviour, it shows

i'm bitter, yes

and well, twitter feels like the accumulation of these awkward friendships, both the good, the bad, and the i-have-no-idea-where-i stand ones

i mean, the last time i posted there about "not knowing where i stand", someone, who i do not know where i stand with, replied to it

i really don't know how to handle normal people and what seems to be mostly performative gestures