(3/5)to live is to whitewashed my body, my thoughts, my walk and my talk. To live is to do more than just surviving. I wanted to be happy and therefore to fit in seemed crucial.
plot twist: i never did.
no one ever truely achieves happiness by plain attunement. unless you lie to yourself and scar your mind to the last bits of spirit that you then starve to the bone.
: one cannot change the blood that streams like rivers through your body - shape you like lands, that shape the earth.
(tbc)