I have noticed something with my #tourettes #tics now that can fully relax and stop suppressing them.
I often do when stressed even alone, and causes me pain, so I have been #learning to relax.
I always have one of my arms up. I put one down, the other tics up, without fail.
My left hand is more intricate and detailed in its movements/tics when up, more gentle.
The right hand wants to fling about and be POWERFUL and POINT.
My mood influences which hand I tic with
@RationalizedInsanity I noticed things got better for me when i stopped trying to hold my tics too.
@jrcs3 I am a lot happier and in drastically less pain.
I was 300 pounds, barely alive and bed ridden after being addicted to drugs and on antipsychotics I shouldn't have been on for five years, cuz they thought I had schizophrenia and bipolar, or however you spell the combination. It messed me up more and made my tics worse once I was off them.
I am still recovering.
I feel a lot better, and I am now more fit than most people.
Not trapped by my own body.
@RationalizedInsanity at 60 I’m doing better than I would have ever imagined.
They put me on Thorazine when I was in 3rd grade; still having trouble trusting the experts.
Now I write software in C# for an insurance company.
@RationalizedInsanity@mastodon.social@jrcs3 I was on every antipsychotic there is at some point.
And pretty much everything else.
I still need medication.
But it's a lot more simple.
I need gabapentin, as much as they are legally allowed to give me, and they're considering pregabalin because I am gaining a tolerance.
Without it, I can't sit still. My muscles cramp up and tic forever, then I never sleep and go psychotic and delusional from sleep deprivation.
Buspirone for severe PTSD and panic, panic make my tics worse.